Tuesday, August 11, 2009

noise

Lately, I've sat down with Little Bitty to read books before bedtime and she points to the same one, over and over. And, cruel as you may think me, I decline to read it to her then. You see, it's a push-the-button-and-a-song-plays book about Noah's ark, and, as she's been reminding me after hearing it so much from my mouth,

" 'Dis book is too noisy, Mommy."

And noisy it is. Which is why I don't read it when we're trying to get our tiny molar-getting-no-sleeping daughter to bed. Her soul and body need calming and rest before being coaxed to sleep, and thus, the book does not have a place in that moment.

Yesterday, B took A for a run in the stroller before dinner, and I relished in the sound of silence while they were gone. I drank it up--and then realized that I too must have been letting noise get to me lately.

It's not a songbook, but it's a myriad of other things. Worries, housework, work, plans, my phone, twitter, facebook, money, yardwork, back pain, and *gasp* my blog.

It's becoming too loud, all this noise.

I have thoughts of just turning it off sometimes. Deleting accounts, especially...just with a click of a button. But I'm afraid it might be too quiet then. I'm afraid I'm miss it. I'm afraid that I might then realize how much time I've spent doing these noisy things and how they aren't important.

Can't I just turn the sound down?

Somehow, I don't think it works that way.

B returned from that run last night and softly whispered, "we're home...." when he and Bitty rolled in. I watched him grin at me and pull open the stroller shade. There she was, fast asleep at the wee hour of 6 pm. Maybe I shouldn't be so surprised, though.

Nothing is more restful than our Father's footsteps next to us.

5 comments:

Holly said...

That was very well written. Thanks for sharing those thoughts.

the Hunts said...

I totally understand the noise that sometimes seems to drown out the peace within....I myself have been struggling to turn it down but then much to my surprise it just gets louder. maybe we can fashion some really cute but good ear muffs for moms.

Faith Imagined said...

I have been thinking similar thoughts lately.

Kelly said...

Well, you read my post from last evening, so you know my thoughts on this... ;-)

It is a soft, cloudy morning here. My toddler is sleeping on my lap because she didn't want to be in bed any longer. I couldn't sleep, so I got up early today. I have been taking time to breathe.

I pray you some today too.

Traci~ Ordinary Inspirations for the everyday wife, mommy, and homemaker said...

I love your blog... and great post! I added your button to mine, and am now a follower.

Can I borrow your "please comment" quote?

Traci